This summer

This poem I wrote about a boy I met at work, he and I became really close. and, well, read the poem and it will all make sense....

The first day I see you, you look confused.
I say hi, want to make you feel comfortable.
But I’m afraid, we don’t match.
You are a skater, and I’m just some girl.

Time goes by, I get to know you.
Your smile is kind, your personality too.
The weeks fly by, we talk every day.
We share about our lives, I’m your angel you say.

It’s been months, you’re my best friend.
We share money, and responsibilities till the end.
Time is still ticking, we are still friends
We talk about everything, most important your girlfriend.

Tick tick tick, I fall for you harder.
Your eyes light up when you smile, I fall farther.
You touch me, I feel a spark.
I try to sleep, but you have left a mark.

Summer is rounding an end, we decide to hang out.
You take my hand, around me your arms stretch out.
I feel your warmth, cuddle close to your side.
I feel perfect, the eternities wide.

The night draws to an end, neither of us stir.
On my cheek your lips touch, the world is a blur.
You bring your lips to mine, nothing to regret.
This moment lasts forever, I never forget.

The summer is over no time to talk, life is a whirl.
I’m busy with school, you’re with your girl.
We text a few times, at least keep in touch.
Slowly I know, you are pulling away despite my clutch.

Months after summer, I miss you so much.
I remember that night, remember your touch.
We try to hang out, but no timing is right.
You talk about your girl, I hide the pain with all my might.

Long into school now, different and new.
I miss who you were, who I was with you.
We find time to talk, you tell me you love her.
I’m falling apart, my heart is no longer.

I knew it was stupid, I shouldn’t have gone there.
You talked of her every day, I knew I didn’t compare.
She was what you wanted, I never could be.
There is a whole in my chest, where my heart should be.

I remember the summer, the talking the laugher.
I see your face, smiling everyday after.
I remember what we had, I feel so sad.
My heart is in pieces, the size of sand.

I close my eyes, the memories win.
I feel the warmth of you next to me, the heat of your skin.
I’m in your arms, we are as one.
I open my eyes, and the memory’s gone.

We talk once again, I struggle through it.
You’ve found true love, and you knew it.
I flash back to the look, that day she stomped on your heart.
I’m happy for you I say, as the tears start.

We no longer hang out, we barely talk.
The friendship, the crush, hangs on the stalks.
We were good together, but we could never.
I miss you now, more than I ever.

This is the last time I see you, I’m so confused.
My best friend, my first kiss, we were so comfortable.
But I’m afraid, we just don’t match.
You are a skater, and I’m just some girl.

After a while

Well it's been a while. infact, it has been my first walking out on a job, my first tubing experience, my first kiss, my first boyfriend, breaking up with my first boyfriend, two school dances, half of senior year, lots of decisions about colleges, and a whole slew of drama in between. It has been a real mess; what a senior year!!!

I don't really know what to say now, I just figured I should maybe write something on here seeing as it's been so long. Well, I will let you get back to doing whatever you were doing. Bu bye!